Antinomy I

Can we learn to live with the knowledge of antinomies? I don't know forsure but I think I am starting to learn how. We want everything so neat and tidy that its unnatural to not undercut one side or the other.

I have not been very explanative of this concept or even the word antinomy yet so let me define it. 'Antinomy is an appearance of contradiction between conclusions which seem equally logical, reasonable or necessary.'*

On the ride to Texas this morning I started reading a book called Evangelism and the Sovereignty of God by J. I. Packer. It so far has been about the difficulties in balancing the duties of man and the sovereignty of God. Each is in itself undeniably true (assuming you believe in the Bible is holy Scripture). So far it has been a hard but good read. I look forward to finishing it tomorrow on the ride back home... or tonight if I can't wait.

But right now I'm tired because of great conversations that took place at a Denny's last night with Emily. Totally worth it but I'm running on 3 hours of sleep right now :)
I will continue this train of thoughts on what I read from the book as part of this series.

*Excerpt from J. I. Packer's Evangelism and the Sovereignty of God.

Next Chapter Beginning

I am having my new year early. I feel like winter is over And spring is around the corner. Now this isn't true, but I feel like it is...
It's going to suck when it snows haha

My mind feels really clear, I feel rested and ready for this next chapter of my strangely great life.

How did I get to where I am now? I didn't get where I am today from what I did yesterday. And I won't get to where I need to by what I do tomorrow alone.

I am okay with that, I don't need to rush anything, I think I'm on track as things are at the moment.

The right place at the right time. This is much more meaningful to me that it might first appear. I have placed weight on these words. I am at peace. I am ready for spring to come and contextualize my feelings.

But there will be probably darker day, colder days, between now and then. But I'm okay with that, I am at peace.

Be still my Soul!

Sometimes I wish I had a wilderness to retreat to when ever I needed to. But I find it increasingly difficult to justify a hunt for such a wilderness. My heart misses the wild and the untamed adventure. I miss the adventure into the uncharted and the dangerous. I can't lie about my secret longings for it, but I know in the end my patience will be rewarded even if it isn't in the way I would want it now. That Is the funny thing about life, no matter how much you feel a desire for something you can't be sure you know the most wise way to satisfy the desire. And that is even assuming that the desire is an appropriate one in the first place.

We are in the trenches of life and are by own own nature incapable of seeing the bigger picture. its only through the peace of Christ which surpasses all else that we can transcend our earthly discontentment (Philippians 4:7). That is really churchy and probably will turn some people off. but it is the truth, and of this I am sure. the Gospel has a hostile disposition toward all that is of the world, and the world is hostile toward the Gospel. So I can't speak this truth above and expect it to be taken well by those who don't know the Gospel, who don't know of this indescribable peace of which I speak.

We with in the fellowship of Christ's love have such great security in what we have been promised. I and most everyone else tend to forget this promise and it peace. I pray that the Lord would be kind and speak to my heart and reprove me in a way that I would be able to more fully rest in his promise. I know I have a long way to go before I'm done but I will be glad in the journey. What I have now is way more than enough for me.This leads me to "dangerous" and "radical" ideas about my life here on this crazy cool place. And that makes me smile :)

I want you to read parts of this.

I think I suck at keeping my bog up to date. I don't know why it is so hard for me but I can't ever decide what to disclose to the world...
I can't believe that life is moving so fast.. I feel like It is easy to lose track of it all. This includes myslef. I feel sometimes my life is too easily lead to one side or the other. I am not too prideful to resist any form of change but I can't lose myself in the fast pace world I find myself.

I am surrounded by some people (one in particular) that need some time to think and find reassurance. there is one that I want to sing a song to (or dedicate?). this is exactly what I want them to hear someone say. 

This chest is full of memories
Of gold and silver tears
I’ll give you more to own than
All of this
And I’ll give you more than years
For you were once a child of innocence
And I see you just the same
Your burdens couldn’t win or
Lose a thing
Oh, I’d tell you once again
But you’re always on the run

Slow your breath down
Just take it slow
Find your heart now, oh
You can trust and love again
Slow your breath down, just take it slow
Find your smile now, oh
You can trust and love again

If you leave I’ll still be close to you
When all your fears rain down
I’ll take you back a thousand times again
I’ll take you as my own
I would sing you songs of innocence
‘Til the light of morning comes
‘Til the rays of gold and honey cover you
In the sweetness of the dawn
But you’re always on the run

You’re not alone
You’re now a part of me
You feel the cure
I’ll feel the toil it brought you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgLZZViOV2A

I know this is lame But I always wish they would somehow find what they are seeking after. I don't why Im so insistent on this but I desire their good so I don't feel weird about it.

I cant describe how frustrating this thing is for insisting that i use bold and blue letters.................. I hate it and wish I could fight it... but is just a program on a computer so a fight isnt really possible...

The Convergence of Diverging Lives

I have found the Hospital is truly an interesting place. besides the presence of medical science so advanced it would have sounded like science fiction 30 years ago, there is a certain bazaar congrigation of all types of people. If you look you will find the high the low, and everything in-between. The beginings of a life, and the endings of life. The best and worst all under one common banner of need. this is why hospitals are so rich for Television dramas and movies to use as a stage. I have found this endlessly fascinating and overwhelming at times. But I know that I will never be in a desk job at this rate, far too much that is interesting to not merely observe but interact and participate in. Maybe I am being over dramatic... but I had to say it.

My Pilot for the new season

So I have been challenged by Brennan (who is possibly my new favorite person after  that last blog) and Emily (who puts my dabbles in blogging to deep deep shame...)
These too lovely and brilliant ladies have made me to take this blog up again... so have mercy on me. I hope that I can find a way to keep this interesting to me and others.

I have started my clinicians in my Radiology Technology program week before last. I am working in Integris Baptist. Its a large Hospital for those who don't know. I am not too sure what all I can and cannot talk about when it comes to HEPA and the like so I will start off slow and not talk about anything to specific.

I have to say I really like working as a Padawan Learner. I have been getting there early and leaving at least on time so far. Even at its most boring I find the insight gained from the conversations with my Jedi masters I follow. I truly enjoy the work so far. I have clinicals two times a week on Wednesdays and Fridays from 3:00pm-11:00pm... But I feel like I would be perfectly okay with doing this more often.. Like I wish I could do it three times a week. In fact I decided to go this Friday even though we don't have to. Christi is probably not too happy with that decision because she isn't going like normal people. But If I was offered a student position at the hospital I would jump on it. I would love to get an opportunity to be there more often, not to mention get paid for it. But that is just a day dream at this point. I am a super idealistic Padawan at this point... I care about many things that seem not to concern my Masters or should I say that they are just Jedi Knights? for after all a Master is quite more than a Knight. Okay its settled that they are Jedi Knights not Masters (except for Jeff, he is a master). But I hope I never let my convictions for patient care dull over the years of learning and of practice. I want to keep my sincere concern and passion for it because I want to help those who come through my path truly and not just hypothetically or Diagnostically. second years and Registered Techs might think this Idealistic (and it very well may be) but for now I will follow my heart and I will not apologize for it.

I have the strange feeling that I will be oddly exposed if I keep this up. But I will not be as serious or final as I have in the past with this stuff. I don't want to be writing essays here that are too serious for anyone to care about. So this is the Pilot for the new season of this show. Staring me.. kinda.

Disclaimer: I am not super into Star Wars but the metaphor is going to stay for a while because I Love it too much.  

Credits
Brennen 
 http://floralsfaithfairytales.blogspot.com/
Emily
http://coffeehowilovethee.blogspot.com/2011/10/x-ray-9-my-current-grades.html 

A short paper on critical thinking. (unedited)

Critical Thinking and Problem Solving

     The concept of critical thinking and problem solving are very important to the healthcare field. Both are prized and highly regarded in general but for the sake of clarity there must be a distinguishing between the two.

     Critical thinking is the process is the overall analytical mindset in which one looks at all areas of a situation. This is the way of perceiving and understanding the “big picture”. This is much more than learning about objects, positions, and systems in and of themselves but learning and understanding the way in which they interact and connect to each other on various levels. It is this understanding that allows for one to react to new and unique situations without knowledge of the specific situation beforehand. With this mindset one can find the parameters and source of problems and work toward problem solving.

     With Problem solving there is a problem that has been identified through Critical Thinking. So it goes without say that Problem solving is subordinate to Critical Thinking. But the continuation of critical thinking in the aim of correcting or solving a specific problem is Problem Solving.

This process of both Critical Thinking and Problem Solving together is highly valued in healthcare and more specifically Radiology Technology. Due to the nature of Human anatomy and physiology, the intricate levels of biological and chemical organization must be routinely considered and comprehended in order to provide the most accurate and positive care possible.

Personally, the practice of using critical thinking has been taught to me since an early age. I have been very analytical in my life for some time now. I feel like I am constantly using It to understand my world or to define aspect of it. My time I spent working at the Ministries of Jesus clinic was filled with my Critical Thinking. If I had patient files that needed to get looked over by the nurses I would have to learn how to figure which was important and/or urgent before interrupting their (sometimes hectically busy) work. This level of thinking and problem solving was honesty not required or expected of a volunteer in Records. But it is this mindset/discipline that made me much more than a Volunteer in Records to the nurses that ran the medical side of the clinic. They consistently gave me more complex and technical tasks as they would try to lighten their own workloads to be more effective in what they needed to do. If I didn’t know how to something they gave me to do they assumed I would learn and figure out how to do it effectively and thoroughly.

I am excited to expand my use of Critical Thinking and Problem Solving into more of the Medical world and in Radiology Technology.